Having promised to bring in the full gist today, here it is.. but first, Good day, how was your week? Did you sleep well? Did you pray today? Did you read your bible? (I'm legit stalling before I start)... Enough with the drag, let's continue our story...
So, the story continues this way...
Anger was just cruising through her veins, all the forgiveness she had given was out the window, but she remained calm, semi-calm?🤷. You know the story started with 3 friends, ehn ehn, so baby girl, who, mind you is a spec, forwarded the message to the 3rd friend, and group chat (that consists of just 3 of them) requesting for a solid explanation. Hmm, I'm not bringing the tea here, but let's just say after about maybe 2 weeks or a bit less, the 3 friends got together (not physically though) to discuss.
Sorry I skipped a crucial part of the story, so baby girl didn't remain semi-calm because she has had one martial training to be calm in anger, or because she is wise (welllllllllll, that is debatable, but I'll leave it there). She remained calm because she didn't want another anger outburst from her to overshadow what is wrong, she didn't want to say mean things back so that it won't be a "shey you too you said your own, you are even, don't act like you didn't do anything" (as per word has it that 2 wrongs never make a right). So back to where I was; So the friends called and discussed my dear reader, baby girl was not relieved at the end of the call, she was anything but relieved, and sadly not sadly, she can't pretend on how she feels.
*kindly bear with me and pause again; this thing really took a toll on my mood, I was highly irritable at the home, and just an all-round angry girl, to cap it up, my mom always had the funny suggestions, in which I turned down because I am a grown woman (hehehehe seem funny to type🤣), P.S. Mother's give the best advice actually* so back to the story
So after a few days, baby girl was feigning forgiveness, she was anything but true to herself, and kept on deceiving herself that she was chilled and had forgiven... but in reality, she was still bitter (and she didn't even have a standard reason to be). She wasn't messaging her friend, no texts, no calls, nothing, she even went as far as claiming she is done with her (which by the way is my catchphrase when I'm tired of someone, or I just give up in general, it doesn't necessarily mean I'm done with you, but in this case...).
*sooryyyyy, you know I'm about to pause you, Emi poping forgiver, I was so distracted by hurt and blinded by chewing gum pride, I was determined not to forgive, unconscious determination though, but all na determination* back to the story please (inserts British accent)😉
So one day (time-lapse ti sa lọ/ I can't remember the time-lapse) she got a message from this friend, where the friend apologised and explained herself ( the message was as long and as spiced as the message that caused the whole serenren). One will think, it will end there, but... nooooooo, baby girl made a pact with agidi (stubbornness) and still didn't forgive, she was sooo bent on getting the perfect apology that suits her imagination. She said "Okay" that day and let it go, half-heartedly, in fact, half of a quarter, heartedly ( one-eighth). Then gbam💣🤯!! Common sense hit her and asked, "ess wo bi better receive sense and forgive". She had to consciously learn how to forgive and why? She had to study the Word, learn to love, and be loved, learn to happy (issnor like I'm a sad person oh). Only until then was she able to experience peace...
The End. (lo pin Cinema)
Some days come and one fine wine will come and say 'ma they sent me to you, my job is to vex you', I just have to let go and learn from Penguins of Madagascar to "smile and wave"
That way I won't let one funk anger, get the best of me and reduce my fun. So rather than wallow in hurt and anger, I forgive, I move beyond focussing on the anger/hurt, rather, I focus on the good in that person. I stay happy and not let actions of another party affect my relationship with Christ (not gonna lie, some people ehnnnn, a story for another aeon), I make sure I voice out my anger CALMLY so that the message will be passed, and most importantly I love the unloveable consciously and genuinely.
Song recommendation: Peace Album by Bethel Music
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You ehn, smh for you
ReplyDeleteDid she forgive you too or did you just assume she did because she apologized?
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